Its the National Day!

and.. I am feeling so lazy to get my butt out of the house.

coach alex organising bbq at eugene's place...

ching text to watch ndp...

colleague called to go out...

but I just dont feel like travelling... knowing the fact its going to be crowded outside.


So much to do!!!

O.o'''

on a side note..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! =)

16 days has passed since maternal grandmother's death...

I'm pretty much distraught over all the things that had happened since her death & the only thing
that I can consider a joy would be... her death has brought my family closer to mum's family.

Friday, I made a mistake at work, a big one that made my tears rolled down.

I've overlooked the allocated quantities for my advertised offer stocks.

Once bitten never twice shy..

History repeated itself for I have once again CRIED infront of my colleagues and the only difference was..
infront of my new department.


And honestly speaking, I felt so much better.

I think I've tried to keep too much to myself that I felt a form of relieve.

and indeed I am going to meet my relatives at the wake.

r.i.p granny

An entry written to serve as a reflection for me many years down the road...


My granduncle passed on last evening at CGH while I was on my way to TTSH to visit my colleague and maternal granny who were both admitted there...


The entire episode of watching the departure sets in.

No, I am not close to my granduncle but what truly pains me is how my paternal granny may have felt from his departure.

I recalled 2 years back when granny was telling my brothers and I that we haven't visited granduncle for a long while - referring to CNY.
She added that we should visit him or we may not have the chance as his age and health is catching up. And yes we did, my younger bros and myself dropped by his place - which is just 2 blks away from granny's place, 3 blks away from my house, during CNY 2 years back. So near yet we made it seemed so far... this year was skipped as some of us were away in Japan.

When I came back, I made empty promises that I will visit him when he was admitted at CGH. When I was ready to drop by, my granny said he was discharged. When uncle and myself wanted to visit him at his place, he was away at one of the relative's place. So the whole thing kept dragging. But granny was always there to keep me updated of his condition. He will be one of the topic she'll share with me when I'm back from work. Until lately, his health has detoriated but refused to stay at hospital and came back home. Granny was worried, for the past 2 weeks she'll without fail, wash the clothes, cook the dinner for us and then prepare to go granduncle's place to visit him. Somehow, I felt that granny hoped that one of us, from my family, will drop by to visit him. About a week ago, I finally dropped by. Within a year of difference, he had changed so much, so fragile and weak.

Yesterday, I called back to inform granny I will be visiting my colleague at the hospital so wont be back for dinner. She told me she's also thinking of not cooking, she's not feeling well or perhaps she may be going down to the hospital. I didnt have much impression of the hospital issue.

When I reached home, mum received a call from granny that granduncle has left. I was shocked. I knew he was leaving but not so soon. Some said that why is he so stubborn and not want to stay at the hospital, but I knew it all too well... When you know your time is up.. you will hope to spend more time with your love ones at home. But his 2 sons were both working, no one was really there to take care of him. Granny was so uptight about it and thou she may have sounded naggy infront of his sons, but they too know that she's very concern over their dad. And that's my granny. I love her so much. I admit that at times I will find her super naggy and dont understand me.. but she's always there for us.. always.. she showed me through her actions how to care for someone. Her selfless time for others... I realised I really really cannot afford to lose her. Seeing her upset, pains me deeply.

I feel suffocated.

Back at TTSH, I decided to visit maternal granny because it was near my colleague's ward. How fillial can I get? I havent met her for ages. The last time I met her was also at TTSH, with mummy and bro. At least I wont feel lonely. I do not know what to say to her. When mum said that she's not coming down, I thought of not going but thought otherwise since its so near. Why not just pop by to peep at her? Her ward has changed and luckily the counterlady was nice enough to help me looked through the patient details which best fits all the limited details I have of her. I walked in, she saw me and I knew I couldnt escape. I spoke to her... I looked foreign to her.. She couldnt recognise me. I'm not surpise. She's been in TTSH for close to 4 months. She told me she felt terrible, felt like leavin the world. I couldnt help but comfort her that she should stay on and see us get married and have kids. I know I didnt want her to leave just like that. Just when I am trying to get back to see my mum's side family whom we have lost contact for years. I definitely do not wish to meet them at any wake. I know I am selfish. It appears like it is more for my personal gain.

On my way home... I feel so confused.

Honestly speaking, its the sense of gulit and not wanting to feel any regrets in life. I do not want to drag until when I am finally ready to do something, I may have been too late.

I went to the wake just now... Saw some relatives whom I havent met for ages... I felt awakard cause I couldnt recall how to address them.

I do not want to finally... meet my relatives at any wakes. Not this way of meeting. I have such big and overwhelming relatives but I am deeply ashamed that none.. none of them that I am close with.

Eve has officially transferred from warehouse to integrated purchasing dpt.

Trying to adapt back to a normal lifestyle!

THANK GOD AND EVERYONE WHO HAS BEEN PART OF MY LIFE.

Thanks Sheryl for being there for me yesterday.

:)

We came into this world w/o anything...

We didnt lose anything...

We cant take them when we leave the world...

These are the words that I'm trying to instill deep inside me.

Yesterday volunteered for Golden Night Event at Woodgrove Sec.

An event held to honor the elderlys by some very well to do family and close to a thousand of elderlys were invited.

We should have more of these events!

Was busy from early noon and I reached home at 2am plus...

On a side note, I'm not in a very good term with the granny...

cause of my brother...

:(

I cried for the first time infront of almost all my colleagues today.

The unjust-sad emotions sets in at every thought of it.

Another learning journey in my life...  grow up and learn to be stronger at controlling my emotions.

Will not elaborate any further.

Dedication to a young girl who was called to be with the Lord a few days ago...

my heart goes out to you and your family dear valerie.

may you find peace in heaven.

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work has been smooth and less taxing.

have been sick close to a week but am on the recovery stage.

mum is coping not too bad at her work place cause one of her ex-colleague is there.

dad is having a very hard time with his taxi license.

I flung my final theory test just like my basic theory. =.='''

I'll make sure I study and pass it the next time round!

till then.

good bye!

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If you plant honesty, you will reap trust

If you plant goodness, you will reap friends.

If you plant humility, you will reap greatness.

If you plant perseverance, you will reap contentment

If you plant consideration, you will reap perspective.

If you plant hard work, you will reap success.

If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation.

So, be careful what you plant now; it will determine what you will reap
later.

After one month plus...

I'm back to blog one entry...

Evee finally conqured the first 3km open water swim yesterday!

3 cheers to myself.

okay enough of myself.

the mum is startin her new part-time job tml.
the dad is tryin v hard to get his taxi license.

- so stop cursing taxi drivers  ---> to the drivers and bikees and whoever! ha.

* am praying v hard. life at work is not so good afterall. with my colleagues is great but with the boss around.... I'll need people to....

SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Pris!

On the second note, I have something interesting to share.


totally entertaining!

after disappearing for 21 days....

here's what I have been doing....

(1) work.

(2) national day at padang forming human flag

(3) passed my basic theory test. gosh! I was on cloud nine. cause I failed the first one. =.='''

(4) planned and celebrated a surprise birthday party for my colleague. going to keep it going for as long as I am there.

(5) met the childhood friend. great time catching up babe! :)) community and sports club... all the way! :))

(6) army half marathon which almost  took my life away... vision blurred upon reachin the finishing line... couldnt control my movement.. head spinning constantly... conclusion.... low in sugar.

(6) attended forklift course for 5 days this week. took the test today and I'm v certain I passed! yay!

(7) coming up. nike human race run, airforce open house etc....

okay.. my life is as usual packed. even for the month of sept.

take care all...

TANG YOU tang-ed.

:))

somebody pls remind to collect my race pack for the following races:

army half marathon in august (24th is the race)
nike human race in august (31st is the race)
great eastern women run in october (26th is the race)
standard chartered marathon in december (7th is the race)


I MISSED SHAPE RUN RACE PACK COLLECTION 2 WEEKS AGO & WAS FORBID TO RUN LAST SUNDAY.

and I'm not the only one. long story. too many people who faced the same thing, loads of complains.

why do people fall?

So that we can learn how to stand up again.

Its time that I should let it go...

no perfections in life.

Looking forward for better future...